Not Feeling It

So I have not forgotten about my blog. I just haven't been able to get myself into a crafting mode. Scrapbooking and what not is so much easier for me when I'm content in life. I'm struggling with contentment at the moment. Not feeling it at all to tell the truth. I am so ready to be at a different place where my divorce is settled and life feels normal. In the mean time I feel like I'm on auto pilot just moving from day to day. I am ready for a distraction. I keep trying to find things to do to distract me from the reality of life at the moment. It works for the most part but then there are those nights like tonight where I'm home all day and pulling out photos thinking I will scrapbook. Then it hits me. I feel a surge of emotions revolving around those memories and I don't want to remember to be honest. I don't want to think of happier times cause then the reality of my situation makes me sad.